My 8 Year Anniversary
In all the busyness and festivities, I almost forgot to share that October is very special to me because it's the anniversary of when I started walking away from organized religion and back into the Grace of God I first experienced as a little girl. This year makes 8 years since I've been walking in this glorious exciting life with Jesus. I've always been a very spiritual person and knew God/Jesus, but organized religion, traditional church, trauma and the pressures of this world slowly sucked out the joy, life and freedom from my soul. At the height of my pain I was fasting for weeks without solid food, praying 24/7, attending every bible study & church service, giving away almost half of my money, preaching on the streets and following every religious discipline that I could, yet my heart was full of fear, anxiety, panic, depression and paranoia. I could not sleep, and even when I did the nightmares were neverending. My mind was always racing and tired, and I felt that no one could help me no matter how hard I/they tried. God rescued me from the pit and changed everything around! (Psalm 40:2) Every year gets better and better, and I'm living the life I saw in my dreams and visions at 4 years old.
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This 8th year has been the best year of my life! Even though the pandemic certainly turned my career and life upside down, the healing, restoration, reconciliation, strength, peace and JOY I am experiencing are beyond my wildest imagination. "Gladness and joy will overtake them, and sorrow and sighing will flee." (Isaiah 35:10) Even rough moments don't feel so bad anymore because I am constantly aware of God's presence and care for me. I know that healing will always come and manifest in me. Every day feels like I am in a beautiful garden. I feel God constantly lifting me up and keeping me sturdy. I am so satisfied, grateful and excited about the tiniest things. I am being loved and loving to overflow. Aside from how rich my inner life is, my outer life is also flourishing and I'm walking into endless open doors. There is a boldness, confidence and courage rising up in me greater than ever before. Thank you God for helping me to carve out a new lane and empowering others to go against the grain too! I could go on and on, but this would turn into a novel LOL!
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Here's to another spectacular year in God's Grace. I am ecstatic to share all that I receive with you all; my blessings are your blessings and my success is your success. What God does for one, He can certainly do for another. (Romans 2:11) All I see is light and life.
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“God is the One who rescues and redeems my life from the pit, the One who crowns me with faithful lovingkindness, compassion and tender mercy. God satisfies my years with good things, so that my youth is renewed like the eagle’s.” (Psalm 103:4-5)